I keep meaning to blog about my party and all the drama fun and insanity that went down...but as ever i don't get the time even now i cant say i will.
I can definitely say i had mad fun like nothing and i am glad i threw that party and most people who came had crazy fun. The only downside was i acquired some stalker...ok fine a guy i know but who decided he was being possessive..The song that comes to mind is one by Tracy Chapman
Say I have known some
Less than I should
Say I have known some
Too well for my own good
Say I´m a saint of mercy
Say I´m a whore
I´ve been a lot of things
But never yours
I wear my mama´s dress
Her finest clothes
Daddy showed me outside
To meet you on the front porch
I laugh at all your jokes
But you look bored
I´ve been a lot of things but never yours
You never cross my mind
You can be sure
You´ll never catch my eye
Waiting for you watching the door
I let you hold me
Dry lip kiss me on the dance hall floor
I´ve been a lot of things
But never yours
Never yours
Never yours
Never yours
Never yours
Never yours
Never yours
Never yours
Never yours
So you say you won
It was a bet
A game of pool or cards
I repay my family´s debt
I let you lie beside me
With no remorse
I´ve been a lot of things
But never yours
Say I have known some
Less than I should
Say I have known some
Too well for my own good
Say I´m a saint of mercy
Say I´m a whore
I´ve been a lot of things
But never yours
Dude will get his own post whether it will take me one year to get time to blog about him...i will blog about him nonetheless..the biggest lesson i learnt was that this casual relationships or arrangements are not for me....this time i was lucky i was the party that was so detached and wanting to get away..what if it were the other way around...i shudder to think
I also learnt that i can still finish with a guy in a manner that conveys the fact that i want out and i am not changing my mind yet still leave the person with their dignity intact...this particular guy really pushed it..but i can honestly say i was fair....
A lesson that i have always known but have thought of doubting was my cynicism when it comes to men..especially men who feel that they are charmers....if your first reaction is not to trust them..do not trust them even if they are on the verge of tears...even they cry.....i for one do not know what to do with a man in tears....but never believe them....i almost believed one..only to learn how he was playing a game....there i was wasting my pity on a scoundrel....
A good thing happened a few weeks back...i realized that some spell that some dude had me under for years was broken...and what relief....
The downside is am now getting under the spell of another friend whom i have gotten close to.....and i thought turning 25 meant less drama...
I had no reason for this post but i miss blogging...this wasn't for people who follow this blog..but rather for me....
Mostly its to get away from the irony of my life...i am never yours you psycho....no matter how long you pursue me..never yours.yet my dear friend,you has done nothing to pursue me, i want to be yours yet you cant understand that...am out
NEVER YOURS
Gorgeous 25
Tomorrow is my birthday and its such a big thing i have to blog about it even if all i am writing is one line.MY PARTY IS ALL PLANNED OUT....i may have gone over board in inviting several guys who have vested interest in me...but what the heck.....its gonna be fun....will blog more after the actual event.
i can honestly say that i have done what i wanted to do before i turned 25 and i have no regrets.If only i could dump some guy before then...i would be much happier,...but we cant have everything..can we....?
Big brother is so interesting.. imagine...on the same month as my birthday...i have job....maybe not permanent but i am glad that after all that waiting i have something...
IN a paradox i have learned how really alone i am....yet how really loved and surrounded i really am.Alone in that the consequences of my decisions are mine to bear...that no matter how much others may want to bear them for me..they cant.....i have learnt that just when you feel most alone..the real friends show you how much they are a treasure....i have learnt that the stuff i have learnt about men...well its not all rubbish...yet there is still lots to learn...that despite my paranoia when it comes to them..i have managed to be really close friends with some of them,.,,,i have learnt stuff about me..that just amaze me..i am proud of the woman i am...just as i am sorry but not ashamed of some of the not so positive stuff i have done.....more than anything i am glad that i am NEVER PART OF THE CROWD......it has cost me to be true to myself even when i am wrong..but the rewards have been worth it...Most of all I KNOW THAT I know thats i know THAT God LOVES ME...I HAVE TESTED HIM AT THE MOST THIS YEAR AND PUSHED AS MANY BOUNDARIES AS I COULD...yet HE IS STILL FAITHFUL..no one will ever love ME LIKE THAT.....
OK THIS POST HAS GOTTEN LONGER THAN I EXPECTED bUT I AM GLAD I AM TURNING 25...UNLIKE SOME OF MY PEERS WHO FEEL BAD ABOUT IT AND OLD..I FEEL THAT THE BEST IS HERE TO BE SAVOURED...AND EVEN BETTER IS ON THE WAY...LIKER MY APARTMENT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!BY THE WAY I WANT A STUFFED ANIMAL....CANT REMEMBER THE LAST TIME ANYONE BOUGHT ME ONE..HIHIHIHI...For any typos.....a thousand apologies
Cross Roads
I feel so awful that i have been awfully busy that i cannot even manage to blog. This is the first time in a month when i have managed to visit my blog.i am truly in a rat race. i leave work so late and so exhausted that sleep is the only thing my body can manage.
I have alot to blog about yet the time or energy is very scarce so i will post lyrics to a song by Tracy Chapman.THere is a week i listened to her every single day.i know insane. THE SONG IS CALLED CROSS ROADS. On 23rd of this month i turn 25 and tahts big yet there are so many things to decide and so many paths to follow with so many different consequences,
All you folks think you own my life
But you never made any sacrifice
Demons they are on my trail
I'm standing at the crossroads of the hell
I look to the left I look to the right
There're hands that grab me on every side
All you folks think I got my price
At which I'll sell all that is mine
You think money rules when all else fails
Go sell your soul and keep your shell
I'm trying to protect what I keep inside
All the reasons why I live my life
Some say the devil be a mystical thing
I say the devil he a walking man
He a fool he a liar conjurer and a thief
He try to tell you what you want
Try to tell you what you need
Standing at the point
The road it cross you down
What is at your back
Which way do you turn
Who will come to find you first
Your devils or your gods
All you folks think you run my life
Say I should be willing to compromise
I say all you demons go back to hell
I'll save my soul save myself
work
so sorry i keep meaning to blog but i get from work so bone tired that sleep is the only thought that can survive ...i got a new job which is a very good opportunity..something to do with global finance...sadly it also meant the end of my reign in unlimited cyberspace..so even its after work hours that i can spare some minutes to do this...
i am happy to have the job but being the new kid on the block is SOOOOOOOOOO NOTTTTTTTTT funny...i haven't felt like this in years...so unsure of myself or my place...i love the facilities..BUT I DON'T LIKE THE FLOOR WHERE I AM WORKING...I SIT NEXT TO THE MAIN MANAGERS...MEANING I HAVE TO BE ON MY BEST BEHAVIOR AT ALL TIMES..I PREFERRED THE UPPER FLOUR,...even the coffee was better there...anyhooooooooooooooo there is nothing much happening in my life other than waking up at 5am in the morning and sleeping at 10pm or 11pm...thew weekends have been good with nonstop partying....my goal was to at least make out with some hot dude...i tell you never make plans..coz Murphy's laws will conspire to ensure all your plans fail....sigh...but all in all i had a fab weekend which when i have time and strength i will blog about...this post was so totally without direction...more like an update.if there are any typos...bear with me..am bone tired
Down there...
Dear Alice,
I'm a young woman (virgin, too) and I'm just wondering... exactly what am I supposed to do with pubic hair? Am I supposed to shave it all off, or do nothing, or I dunno, trim it? Do guys have preferences with trimmed and shaved or none? Help!
Hi Alice,
I was curious as how to groom the male crotch. I've never been taught how or if I'm at all supposed to do it. I wanted to know if there are any helpful hints if I do do it.
So anyhuuuuuu at some point I was like the first dear Alice girl and no one seemed to answer my questions as if talking about pubes is some crime against humanity. Urban Dictionary defines pubes
"Hair that grows near your 'danger area'! If you shave it gets itchy, and if you leave it there...it's itchy!
Trimming is your only option, but females should wax it."
I have heard all the horror stories concerning bikini wax and I am the first to admit that my pain thresh hold is very low....my friend who is very brave said she cried real tears....it means i would bring the whole building down with my wailing and howling...but many swear by it so for the brave hearts carry on
Some people experiment with their pubes and as shown above trim them to whatever creative shape they like.....to me that's just weird but then again most things that I do can be categorized as weird. I am all for a trim but I don't really give it much thought other than finishing as quickly as possible and forgetting the whole incident.....to shape it....or as some do…colour it...my hair is a much better medium. soon we will hear of split ends on pubes
others its "au natural" as a friend once said I don't care if its a forest down there.....Most of my male friends are so vocal about the necessity of a woman shaving her pubes yet on their part there is a refusal to do the same...call me a feminist but if I am going to endure any discomfort for you...you better return the favor or all bets are off
One of my many friends said that they were told that a woman should only have hair on her head....wow....I so would disqualify from being a woman seeing as I don't shave my arms or legs...the hair is too inconsequential and biologically its there for a reason. It amazing but some guy once followed me for quite a distance on a busy street only to come and whisper to me that I should shave my legs. If you know me you would see obviously dude was deranged as you cant see hair on my legs as I am dark and any hair that is there is minute. Bushy pubes don't disgust me as much as armpits that give the Amazon a run for their money...I was unfortunate to see one on a friend and the trauma was too much...
The One of my very good friend once remarked rather caustically “who wants to eat MAU forest?" I really laughed though now the famous forest range is almost bare due to human activity...but as the image above illustrate I guess the guys can pay for it badly if your front lawn is unkempt
Alice did answer the questions and below is an extract of the pros and cons of the different methods of dealing with pubes.
* Hair grows back within a few days
* May be uncomfortable and itchy as it grows back
* Hair may feel coarse when it grows back, because the hair shaft will have a blunt tip
* Possibility of cutting the skin, razor burn, and/or ingrown hairs
* Inexpensive
* Can be done at home
Waxing (commonly known as "bikini wax")
* Hair grows back after a few weeks
* Slight discomfort when the hair is being taken off
* Hair regrowth may feel thinner as it grows back
* Can be costly
* Can be done at home but may be easier to have it done professionally
Tweezing
* Hair grows back quickly
* Plucking is painful
* Can be used to remove a few stray hairs that may be bothersome but not recommended for the full job
Depilatories
* Product must say that it's safe to use on the pubic or bikini area
* Can test product in a small area and wait 24 hours to be sure that no reaction occurs
* Can cause irritation
* Inexpensive
* Can be done at home
I have so wanted to write on this for a while yet held back...had fun..so give me your take...your preferred 'front lawn' landing strip' or pube management method
swirling thoughts
wow its been so long...yet it seems i didn't suffer from withdrawal symptoms. Our net has been down hence mail is all i have been able to check seeing as am a job seeker of some sort.
I saw some research job which sounds interesting,pays really well(five zeros) and is with a good organization. I really want this job so bad that i have managed to freeze my want till today.Tomorrow is the deadline and i am working on my resume today. It took me much time to work on my CV while i was still in uni and most people say its among the best..but seeing as it has not landed me the jobs i want....OK to be fair it does get me to the interview skills...but i have decided to redo my whole resume,,,who knows..i even sought help from all sorts of quarters.I am the first to admit that my application letters have not been the best in fact its one of the things i hate writing but i got some tips and hopefully i will have superb letters.
I HATE government institutions in this stupid country....especially the bureaucracy involved...my mum works for the government and after seeing all the crap involved..i swore to myself that i would stay clear of it like the plague. Our company had two contracts with one of the government parastatol. I worked really hard in drafting and redrafting those contracts which kept being brought back for amendments and finally after two months they signed the contract and service was started in both the kitchen and laundry department...its time to pay for the first quarter and these stupid idiots don't want to pay with flimsy excuse after flimsy excuse..and when all else fails they fall on the all worn out excuse that they need a further explanation on how the contracts operates or the prices are too high.Imbeciles...they made us explain each and every phrase on that contract...add conditions etc and now suddenly they do not understand it...i don't know why a majority of people do not understand 5that a contract is executed the moment the parties sign and not whether payment has been made or not...i really admire my dad coz he has such patience with these morons or thick heads as he calls them...we discovered that what the people want particularly one fellow is to be bribed..something we refuse to do...we did superb work for them..why should we bribe you to pay us?i hate them i hate them..we really need the cash inflow is its a lot of money. i think that working for my dad these 6 or so months has really opened my eyes as to the reality of business...it really needs nerves of steel. Karl Marx said that for the bureaucrat the world is a mere object to be manipulated by him.
On another note my friend was so amused when we reminded her of what she was saying as regards only settling for guys who can make you come...i tell u the things you say when you are high.I went with a couple of Friends to OLEPOLOS....weirdly enough i have never graced this place...it was a nice drive though they made us wait for the meat for like hours..we were so famished..i felt really bad for the guys...seeing as men have such appetites,,,,they way dudes eat should be like some wonder of the world. My small brother who used to be begged to eat now devours food at a rate that leaves one wondering if its the last meal he is partaking.He is finally closing school and coming home this weekend i am sure my mother must be thrilled.
I keep losing my passion for work then regaining it..then losing it..its like some yo-yo game...its not funny.Yesterday i took the whole day off and just watched telly at home from morning till night.Bliss but now i am back...but i cant complain idleness is not my thing.
I was a t a party recently and we got talking about different things and the topic of flings came up...as more and more people talked i realized that we each have our definition of what a fling is...i wondered if it is possible to have a fling without having sex with the other person..shall we call them flingee?....and i would so love to hear from someone who has had a fling.Some of the feedback i got was that its a bad a idea to have a fling with a friend as it complicates stuff and may end up badly..but then again the question raised how do u let in a stranger....musings that's all let me get back to my resume redo.
